#1 (24) How to Get Everything you Could Ever Want in LIFE!

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The Great Magical Mystery Tour
WONDERFUL
EASTER EGG HUNT!
AMAZING THINGS
 you can  find  IN  This  Blog!
How to live forever young in Happiness!
How to become young again IF you are OLD!
How to
BE   HAPPY  NOW!  &
From Now On & Forever!  (With
the Help of 
Superior Technology!
From the New Jerusalem--the
Giant Space Station--
WHERE HEAVEN IS!
(The STAR TREK interpretation of the Bible:
The BIBLE IS the true story of
STAR TREK ENCOUNTERS on Earth,
Mistranslated by Troglodytes!)
(Be HAPPY NOW! 
NOBODY  guarantees you to
BE ALIVE  TOMORROW!)
Live in the Present.
Don't wait till you grow up, or get out of
school or the army or get to 21 or
get to HEAVEN!
Never prepare for the FUTURE in such a
way as to make the PRESENT miserable!
The "JESUS CURE" for
Every Sickness & Disease!
When Prayer did  not  WORK!  Add 
 FASTING!
(The  BEST  Advice for Healing that
Jesus   Gave  to
HIS APOSTLES!  (--From the man who
did 1000's & 1000's of
INSTANT healing  MIRACLES!  With
JUST  a WORD of Prayer!) 
(Bible says!)  MATTHEW 17:21)
& better yet fasting WITH Green Herbs!
& The TWO TREES of LIFE of
THE BIBLE!
(Restore All Things!)*
To Live forever Young! (Genesis 3:2) &
 To Heal the Nations (Revelation 22:2)
How to get: Peace of Mind.
Greatest Magical Mentality &
the GREAT 6-Day-Fasting-Mentality!
Perfect Permanent Crystal Clear Clarity of Mind!
Perfect Peace & Happiness!
Perfect Calm!
Definiteness of Mind.
The Great Epiphany State!
I see!  I Understand!  I found it! 
I Know!  Eureka!
How to Cure: 
Procrastination Syndrome.
Cat-Foot-Syndrome!
(The Cat loves Fish, but
Hates to get its Feet Wet!)
"I want Everything, BUT! 
I Hate to Work for it!"
Jennifer Syndrome. =
(Wake up & Burst Into Tears!) Ha! 
--Me & my Suicidal Cousin & Father!
What is the MOST IMPORTANT THING
IN THE WORLD & IN MY LIFE?
Avoid Pain, Prolong Life, Increase Joy & Happiness.
LOVE GOD!
"What Profit to Gain the Whole World
(OR any smallest portion of it),  but
Lose your Own Life?"
What good are my Possessions to ME, IF
I am DEAD?!
JOKE:  Jack Benny walking. 
Robber comes up  & Points a Gun at him &
says:  "Your Money or Your  LIFE!"
Jack Benny is Silent. 
The Robber  YELLS! 
"I SAID,  Your Money  or Your LIFE!" 
 Jack Benny says, "I'm Thinking About It!  I'm
Thinking About It!" --MUCH LAUGHTER!
What good is my Money to me, IF I'm DEAD?!
"You should Serve your Country....
Go join the Army!"
(Go to Viet Nam to Shoot &
be Shot At!)  Ha!
What good is this Country to me, IF
I am DEAD?!
Jesus said the same thing!:  "What PROFIT to
Gain the Whole World, BUT  LOSE your
Own  LIFE?!"
What good is your BODY & BRAIN &
Wife & Kids & Country & World to YOU, IF
YOU are DEAD?!
Which is more IMPORTANT?  LIFE? OR
LIFE AFTER DEATH?
Life is Sure!
Is Life AFTER Death SURE?
You know you are ALIVE!
What do you KNOW about
LIFE AFTER DEATH?
ANYTHING?!
Does it exist?  When will it be?  How does it work?
Will your physical body be
resurrected, but
not your conscious mind & memories?*
Solomon  Verses  Jesus?
(Ecclesiastes 9:5,6)
(Lazarus to "Bosom of Abraham" &
Rich Man dead & buried, BUT! Lifted up
his EYES in Hell!"
("A SPIRIT-GHOST hath NOT
Flesh & Bones!)  (Jesus)  
How reconcile these two?*
What do DO WHEN the
Muslim terrorist with SWORD OR
(an AK-47 ASSAULT RIFLE) comes
 up to YOU & says:
"Are YOU a CHRISTIAN?!"  &
IF you say YES,
he will chop off your Head! 
(--Like it says to do in the Koran!)  BUT! 
 If you DENY Christ, he will Deny YOU!
& YOU supposedly will go to Hell! 
--AFTER you DIE! 
Which better? 
To LIE & LIVE?
 to DIE ANOTHER DAY?
OR DIE as a MARTYR because
you wouldn't LIE OR DENY Christ?
"A Bird in the Hand is worth
Two in the Bush!"
How to Grow New Teeth in your Head!*
How to grow new hair on a bald head*  (Theoretically!)
Why people go Bald.
Why people get old & die!
How to stop the Aging Process!
& Reverse some effects of AGING!
How to know  WHEN  Jesus will come back--not
the day nor the hour, but 
 the YEAR  when it comes
close enough & the SIGNS ARE
THERE TO SEE!
BIBLE PROPHECIES that have come true in 
OUR TIME & ARE COMING TRUE as we
Speak  NOW! & in the NEAR FUTURE!
The Mark of the Beast!~ 666!
The Lake of Fire!  --ARMAGEDDON!
The Destruction of Hiroshima & Nagasaki!
Israel's return to Palestine to become a Nation Again!
(After DYING  as a Nation  2000 Years Ago!)
When Israel will put up it's  FINAL TEMPLE!  to
Replace the Muslim Temple--the Dome of the Rock!
WHEN  the World will  END IN FIRE!*  
How to be FREE!  & Walk the Earth, eating
Green Herbs (that you Actually   LOVE! ) 
--LIKE a Rabbit or Deer!
How to Think & Solve Problems!
(If you COULD  Think & Solve Problems, 
you WOULD   SOON  have everything 
you have ever wanted in Life!) 
 How to Cure Mental Confusion & Depression & Suicidal Feelings &
 PAIN  IN THE BRAIN! 
How to NEVER EVER Feel like
KILLING YOUR SELF ever  again!*  Ha!
(Wouldn't that Be good?!)
How to LOVE GOD = YHWH = (Everything
That IS & IS Happening = Creator of
ALL THAT EXISTS including YOU & all your
Thoughts & Desires  & Emotions & Actions! 
 God is IN Everything &  
IS Everywhere! 
"The First & Great 
COMMANDMENT!"
(Jesus) =
LOVE GOD!  =  Love Everything &
FEEL LIKE IT!  =
BE  HAPPY   NOW!
& From Now On & Forever!
Living forever Young without 
getting old & Dying!
(As Close as Possible.  Ha!)
If you hate anything,
you are hating God! 
If you CURSE anything,
you are cursing God!
Do you have enough FAITH to 
believe that You will Live  
 AFTER  you  Die? .... Then
Why not have enough  FAITH
to believe that You Can
 LIVE FOREVER YOUNG?  From
Now On?!!!  without
getting old & Dying like Adam & Eve?
THAT'S What Jesus OFFERED
YOU & Came to Earth to  Give you!
(Believe it or NOT!)
"I came that you might have LIFE!  &
Have it MORE ABUNDANTLY! =
Live LONGER!  Avoid  Death!  
Live forever YOUNG! 
"Life EVERLASTING!" = Without the
INTERRUPTION  of
PHYSICAL DEATH!
 ("He that   LIVES   &  BELIEVES on  ME  will
NEVER DIE!")*  (Jn 11:26)
Which is MORE Important?: .... LIFE  or 
 LIFE AFTER DEATH?
Which do you KNOW you HAVE?!
Which is EASIER to Believe?
Which is HARDER to Believe?
Which is MORE LIKELY?
How to Eliminate Fear & Anxiety &
PAIN IN YOUR BRAIN!
How to get the "FAITH of a Grain
of Mustard Seed"  to MOVE your
Mountains"* = the things you want that
seem impossible at this time.
How to make everything in the World
Seem Perfectly Simple & Clear & EZ ....  instead
of Incredibly Complicated & Confusing & Difficult & 
IMPOSSIBLE!
Biblical Proof of  Life After Death!*
& Proof that
"THERE  IS  NO DEATH!" *
Like Mary Baker Eddy said!  Ha! 
(Founder of Christian Science)
 IS  it TRUE!

Could it be TRUE?!

Biblical Proof that the Bible is the

Inspired, Infallible Word of God!*

Proof  that there are  NO Discrepancies  or

MISTAKES IN THE BIBLE!*

Scientific Proof  that RE-INCARNATION IS

An  ESTABLISHED FACT!*

Halucinogenic Trips you can take .... without

Breaking the Law or getting into Trouble.*
Getting Crystal Clear Clarity of MIND!

How to See the Future* & Avoid Danger of

Failure, Pain, Damage & DEATH!*

How to be SAFE in

A Dangerous World!

Where is Heaven?

Where is PARADISE?

Are they IN the Same Place?

NO!

Do you have to Die to go to Heaven?

NO!
Do you have to DIE to get
ETERNAL LIFE? --LIFE EVERLASTING? 
NO!

How do we Know? 

Nobody in the Bible ever 
 died &  went to Heaven!

Three People in the Bible went to Heaven! 

They were ALL

 ALIVE  WHEN  they went!

Where did Jesus go when he died on the cross &

said to the thief beside him, "Today, YOU will

be  with ME  IN PARADISE!"

Where did Jesus TAKE HIM?

Where IS PARADISE?

NOW you will  KNOW!  (For Sure!)

Where did Jesus go after

he ATE Fish & Honey  &

Floated up    &   into a   CLOUD   &

Disappeared on his way to Heaven?

&   HOW did he get there?

How to be FREE in

a World of Slavery!--The RAT RACE!

What is the Truth that will Make YOU Free?

(You shall know the Truth & the Truth

Shall Make you Free!  John  8:32)

"If   we could   MAKE MONEY  & didn't have to  Eat  &

Pay Rent,  WE'D   BE RICH!"

How FASTING can make you RICH!

How to get God to
DO  MIRACLES  for YOU!

("Greater Works than these shall  YOU  DO, Because

I go  to the Father.")  (John 14:12)

What "Greater Works"  than Jesus DID,

can  YOU  DO?!*

How to TALK to God  SO  that

God  will TALK to YOU!*

How to get SAFETY, HEALTH, HAPPINESS,

WEALTH & POWER (Over your own life.)

How to get  SELF-CONTROL* to get

Everything Else you could ever want

in Life, by Working For It!

("If you want something, you must

Work for it."  Jewish Proverb)

How to  GET  Thin  &  Stay Thin  BY

Learning 
 to Control  DESIRE!

With out Effort, Hunger, Frustration,

Unhappiness, Lack of Energy, OR Failure!

How to  DEFY  GRAVITY &

LEVITATE!*

How to  KNOW  WHEN 
 the World will

END IN FIRE!  &
When Jesus will

come back to Earth!* 
 (Matt: 24)  &
Who He will

remove from Earth to Save them

From NUCLEAR HOLOCAUST =

LAKE OF FIRE = HELL =

Burn Up the Earth =

"Behold! I make ALL Things NEW!  (Isaiah 65:17 , Revelation 21:5)

"No Man KNOWS the Day nor the Hour!"

BUT!  You  CAN 
Know  the Order of Events &

WATCH!   for  the Signs  &
KNOW the Year! 

When the SIGNS ARRIVE to tell you

it is getting VERY CLOSE!

How to Cure yourself of every Disease & Pain! 

(The Jesus Cure   For
EVERYTHING!*)

Including DYING slowly in PAIN--HELL till

finally drop dead suddenly
of   OLD AGE--like Adam & Eve!

The Deuteronomy CURE for
Every Disease & Sickness!*)

How to CURE Insomnia!

How to Cure Kidney Failure &
eliminate the need

for the Dialysis Machine*

(If you don't find what you want,
you can send me an email.)
"If  you  don't   know what you WANT,
There's  NO WAY  in the Whole Wide World
to GET IT!"
Everything in this Blog is Free except
for the Booklet I Sell.
To get anything in life,
you must find out &
know TWO THINGS!
#1)  What you WANT! &
#2)  HOW to Get It! &
#3)  What do I need FIRST to
Be Able to Get it?!
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a number of things you must
get FIRST before & IN ORDER TO
Get the Thing You Want!"
From this Free Blog, you will
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Safety, Health, Happiness, Wealth, &
Power (over your own Life.)
This blog tells you WHAT you WANT &
  WHAT  to  DO  to
PROSPER & HAVE GOOD SUCCESS at
getting everything you could ever want in LIFE!
BUT!
What's left to Sell?
Jimi Hendrix said:
"I know what I want.  I just
don't know
HOW TO GO ABOUT GETTING IT!"
From this FREE blog, you can SEE
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"Before  you  KNOW HOW,
it's IMPOSSIBLE!  BUT
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(Like riding a bicycle!)
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#2 (24) HEAVEN is a Giant SPACE STATION!

#2
--THE "NEW JERUSALEM!"
"Coming DOWN out of HEAVEN

from God."  (Revelation 21)
(where the Stars--Physical Stars are)

Heaven is  NEVER mentioned!  in the
Bible without being associated with
 PHYSICAL things!
HEAVEN:  --Where the Physical

Stars are, Where the Physical Sun & its

Physical Fire are, Where the Physical

Moon is & the Physical Planets
of the Solar System are & Where

the Milky Way Galazy is, & Where

the Physical Clouds are & the
Physical Rain comes from, &

Where the Physical  Living Elijah  

went in a Physical Chariot of Fire! 

--ROCKET SHIP!!!  HEAVEN

Is HEAVEN a Giant Space Station? Is Heaven a Spiritual Place (Where the SPIRITS of Dead Believers go WHEN they DIE?) NO!  or a Physical Place?  (Where only people ALIVE in  PHYSICAL Bodies can go?  Like Las Vegas.)  YES! Why did Jesus eat Fish & Honey just before going  UP  to Heaven?      The Bible Answers!  To SHOW his diciples that he was a PHYSICAL TOUCHABLE BODY going to a PHYSICAL PLACE where people EAT & DRINK! Luke 24:37-43    Jesus appeared after his resurrection & his disciples feared --thinking him a Spirit-Ghost.  He said, "A Spirit hath  NOT  flesh & bones as you see I have  --touch me.  Have you meat to eat?"  They gave him Fish & Honey & he ate.  --Showing them that he was a   PHYSICAL BEING who could eat & drink & touch & talk & that he was going to a   PHYSICAL PLACE, where people eat the Leaves of the Tree of Life & drink living/moving water!  John 14:2-3  "In my Father's  House  are many Mansions.  (Physical Places)    I go to prepare a Place for you, &  If  I go, I will return & receive  YOU  unto myself, that where I am there   YOU  may be also."  Revelation 21:2,10,16. HEAVEN!    The NEW JERUSALEM "Coming DOWN out of HEAVEN from God." --1500 miles square (--Physical Measurements --the area of Australia!)  1500 physical miles high. Streets of physical Gold, Walls of physical Blue Sapphire, physical Green Emerald, physical Yellow Topaz. 3 physical Entry Ports on each 4 physical walls of physical White Pearl, God feeds the physical descendents of those Saved from the physical  Lake of Fire (Nuclear Holocaust) on the physical Earth with the physical Leaves of the Tree of Life  growing in the midst of the   physical street & the river of Physical  Living (moving) Waters for Drinking.      In the Bible 5 people went to HEAVEN!  They were all ALIVE when they went.  Enoch, Elijah, Jesus, & the 2 Witnesses after God raised them from the dead to stand on their feet!  (Revelation 11:11) Never!  anywhere in the Bible is there any mention of a Spiritual Heaven!!!  Every mention of Heaven in the Bible is of a PHYSICAL HEAVEN!  --HEAVEN! --UP--where the physical Sky is, --the physical CLOUDS are, --the physical RAIN comes from, --the physical MOON, physical SUN, physical STARS ARE!  --where the physical God LIVES --who ate Abraham's physical food --butter & milk & meat & washed his physical feet & rested in the shade of a tree & said, "I am going down to Sodom & Gomorrah to see IF the report of much sin is true, & IF IT IS,... I  WILL KNOW!  & I will DESTROY THEM!   The PHYSICAL God did  NOT  know for sure & would not destroy  2 cities without being CERTAIN, so, he went TO LOOK!  to   MAKE CERTAIN! & then he destroyed PHYSICAL CITIES with PHYSICAL BOMBS --Physical FIRE & Physical BRIMSTONE--SULPHER--there are Physical Tekites found there even to this day   --EVIDENCE  of a Physical Nuclear Explosion --6,000 years ago!     Why did Jesus Eat Fish & Honey before going UP to Heaven?  To show them what Heaven is like --where he was going!  Do people EAT in HEAVEN?  YES!  Does God "Feed them with leaves from the Tree of Life?"  The Bible says He DOES!   Does God Give them Living (moving)  Waters to Drink? YES! Do Spirits have flesh & bone?  NO! --Teeth & Tongues & Mouth NO! to Eat & Drink?  NO!  & A Brain to Think & REMEMBER & a Tongue to TALK?  NO!  (According to Jesus & Solomon!  (A Spirit hath NOT Flesh & Bones as you SEE I have. & Solomon Ecclesiastes 9:5,6  "The Living KNOW they will DIE, but the DEAD do  NOT  know anything because their MEMORY is forgotten & their Love & Hate & Envy have already PERISHED-DIED, & they will no longer have anything to do with anything done under the sun anymore forever.") Can  there be THOUGHT without a Physical Brain to think the thoughts?  & can there be speach & talking without a Physical Tongue & Lungs & Physical Air to carry sound from Physical Vocal Cords to Physical Ears to Hear?    Do you have to DIE to get Eternal Life?  NO!  ETERNAL LIFE MEANS ....  LIFE  WITHOUT  DEATH!  --the AVOIDANCE OF DEATH! --DO you have to DIE to Go to HEAVEN?  NO!  You have to stay ALIVE  --BE ALIVE OR BE RESURRECTED with a new PHYSICAL BODY! Is HEAVEN A Place of SPIRITS who have no FLESH & BONES?  NO!  Will there be a RESSURECTION? YES!  OF COURSE!  Why?  Because there are only so many Human Genes!!!  Therefore sooner or later over 1000's of years & billions of people your physical body --your CLONE will come to Earth AGAIN!  It's like rolling the dice!  If you keep rolling them, sooner or later every number comes up according to the Laws of Probability. But will you remember your PAST LIFE?  I don't know anybody who ever did!  Solomon says, NO! You have lived before!  Do You remember your PAST LIFE?  NO!? What did Jesus MEAN by John 11:26  "He that LIVES & Believes on Me will NEVER DIE!"  What is the ONLY THING that CAN DIE?  ONLY the Physical Body can DIE!  Can the SPIRIT die?  NO!  Can the "IMMORTAL SOUL"  die?  NO!  SO!--DID JESUS TEACH PHYSICAL IMMORTALITY?  YES!  ABSOLUTELY YES!  Why did Jesus say, "Nevertheless, shall the Son of Man find FAITH on the Earth when he Returns?"  Because every body (SAYS) they BELIEVE  they will live  AFTER they DIE, but nobody believes Jesus --that they can   AVOID  death!  "Everybody wants to go to Heaven,  BUT  NOBODY  wants to DIE!"  Ha!  Now  WHY  would that BE?!  Maybe it's because they don't really believe that they're gonna go to HEAVEN  AFTER  they DIE!  & Maybe they  don't really BELIEVE That you have to  DIE!  to get ETERNAL LIFE (as my father claimed shortly before he killed  himself by starvation!  --claiming that he believed suicide is self murder & for that you go to HELL!)  Maybe  he was a liar?!  Now you know why!  "Everybody wants to go to Heaven, but NOBODY wants to DIE!"  PEOPLE LIE!   THEY LIE ABOUT WHAT THEY  REALLY  BELIEVE!  Maybe they remember that in the Bible, NOBODY EVER DIED & went to HEAVEN!  & the  ONLY  people who went to Heaven in the Bible were ALIVE when they WENT! ("All Liars shall have their part in the  Lake of Fire."--HELL!  (Revelation 21:8)  --Nuclear Holocaust that will some day --End  the World by FIRE!)  (Genesis 32:22 Rev 22) I told my father he was lying!  I said, "Dad, you're lying to yourself & to God & to your Children & to everybody!"  & he said,  "Bill stop talking about it.  You're gonna give me a Heart Attack!"  I had to let go of it, & years later he killed himself & I was helpless to save his life! A GREAT HEARTACHE! When I was 20 my father & I took a little walk for a conversation in the woods behind his house in Greenville, SC.  I had a problem.  I told him,  "I always feel like Killing Myself!" (I meant frequently felt like it.)    I thought he would say, "Well there's something wrong with you.  We'll take you to a doctor & get you some PILLS, & you'll be allright."  BUT!  He didn't!  He just looked at me & said, "Gee, I never thought a thing like this would happen to ME!" (That my son would tell me that he feels like KILLING HIMSELF.)  He didn't  seem to feel any need or obligation to HELP ME! Which surprised me.  I thought he would surely make an effort to help me!  I wondered what he would think if I went ahead & killed myself.  "Well that's a shame.  Too bad Bill.  Sorry.  There wasn't nothing I could do.  Ha!  So I thought to myself, "He's NOT gonna help me.  He's got problems of his own.  I gotta solve my own problem.  And so I started keeping records of everything I ate! & that taught me how to never ever feel like killing myself ever again!  & taught me everything I know about the human body & health & disease & curing all the diseases & problems I have had in the last 50 years as I come to my 70 th birthday.  & it turns out that what my father did to me which I felt was criminal negligence,  dispicable on his part.  & it was the best thing he could have done for me!  So I left home & went to the University of South Carolina. My father & disagreed about religion.  He told me if I would go to the religious college (Bob Jones University in Greenville)  he would help me with money.  But I figured I could make it on my own, & left home.  & there was very little communication between us after that.       I had many adventures & mishaps & when my mother had died & I was about 60 & my father was about 83, I went to school to become a Nurses Assistant in San Antonio, Tx.  I made an A  & the top grade in the class of about 100 people.  --thinking that I would have to take care of my father as he got older & more decrepit. & them I went to Amelia Island where he lived in Florida. He told me, don't come.  He had remarried.  But I went there anyway.  He had 2 operations on his eyes but still couldn't see anything without magnifying glasses, hearing aids both ears, false teeth, operations on both knees getting titanium knee joints, (cost insurance $150,000!) but couldn't straighten out his legs & walked bent.  He had shrunk 2-3 inches from 6'2" to about 5"10", but worst of all he was depressed & saying to me (a few times when I would visit him) with a serious look on his face.  "Bill,  "I'm READY TO MEET THE LORD!" I told him, "Dad,  if you quit eating the foods that make me depressed & feel like killing myself, YOU will GET ALLRIGHT!  But he refused to discuss it & said to me,  "Don't talk about diet or religion.  If you're gonna talk about that, then don't come around!" I had tried many times to get him to change his diet or try FASTING & to listen to my opinions on the Bible & religion, but he always refused to discuss it, & I had to be extremely careful & tip-toe around his sensitive subjects, or he would get angry or anxious & nervous & so unhappy, so I  tried to walk the tight rope of trying to help him without his having so many evil emotions --which I was certain I could do--  IF!  If he would only discuss his problems in a calm reasonable manner, but he COULDN'T! When he told me he was READY TO MEET THE LORD, I had no  slightest INKLING  that he meant to KILL HIMSELF! But THAT'S what HE DID! After some angry words from him on the phone, he shouted at me,  "Don't call me back!" & hung up on me.  He came to see me one more time in Jacksonville, Fl where I lived in a tent on Department of Transportation Land --so he met me at the Library where we could sit in a private room & talk.  When he got out of the car he was crying.  I said, "Dad,  Don't feel bad.  It can't be helped."  (I never said a cross word to my father in my entire life!)  But I had no idea that he was thinking of killing himself!  My step mother had driven the car to bring him to Jacksonville (17 miles west from Amelia Island.)  & we had a good talk & parted friends again, but I decided to leave him alone for a while thinking maybe he would change his mind about me coming to take care of him, so I didn't come see him for a month.  The next thing I knew was a letter from my brother telling me he was DEAD!  & the funeral was in a couple days, & I had to hitch-hike there (no buses) to go to it.      He had told my step-mother the same thing --Ready to Meet the Lord.  "Don't give me any Food or Water!  & She AGREED!  & didn't!  From dehydration & no Food, he went from 180 to 140 & died!  She told me that the night before he died, he said, "I don't think I'm gonna make it thru the night." & the next morning she was resting her head on his chest & told me, "I heard his LAST HEART BEAT!" Dr,  Kervorkian --assisted Suicide!  A Crime!  My brother & 2 sisters had prayed that God would "Take him to be with Jesus."  (Nobody in the Bible ever DIED & WENT TO HEAVEN TO BE WITH JESUS!  Jesus was ALIVE & walking & talking & eating just as he went up to go to Heaven!  Enoch & Elijah were also ALIVE when they went to Heaven!)  So their prayers to God for him were prayers that he would DIE!  They wanted him to DIE!  None of them thought to bring a doctor to see him & maybe give him some PILLS for depression & suicidal feelings!   I guess They all felt that 85 was enough & he was decrepit & in bad shape & the best thing would be to be "put out of his misery!" I hated them!     I NEVER dreamed that my father would kill himself, because a basic teaching of Christianity IS:  Suicide is Self Murder & for THAT you go to Hell, AFTER YOU DIE! But none of them really believed that! He certainly didn't believe that!  Or he wouldn't have done it!  Actions speak LOUDER than Words! They  knew he was killing himself!  & they  HELPED HIM! "We know that NO MURDERER has Eternal Life.  (1st John...) This shows LIES that Christians tell! They prayed for him to DIE!  The Sad & Strange thing  IS  THIS: He couldn't help me  when I was 20 (& depressed & confused & wanted to DIE,  because  I thought it would be  OBLIVION &  OBLITERATION!  --Resting in  Peace in PARADISE!) (& 40 years later when I had pretty much solved all my PROBLEMS), I couldn't help him  BECAUSE  he Refused to  COMMUNICATE!   He refused to discuss or answer questions or try anything I advised him to do. "Poverty is HARD HEADED!"   He was STUBBORN & hard headed --"a hard headed Dutchman", (as we used to say in our family.)  He was ARROGANT & Lacked HUMILITY!  ( =" I could be wrong."  "You COULD be right."  "I don't know."  "Anything is Possible.")  He thought he couldn't be wrong (ARROGANCE) & I couldn't be Right!  & he  DIED!  FROM A LACK OF KNOWLEDGE!  (Hosea 4:6) "People DIE from LACK OF KNOWLEDGE!"  The SAD & STRANGE THING was what allowed him to KILL HIMSELF was KNOWLEDGE that I had given him! Which was THIS:  SELF-CONTROL!  --The Amazing, Miracle of FASTING!  = As long as you FAST, YOU have control of your self & your hunger & you can KEEP ON Fasting as long as you like!  --even to DEATH like my father! People (according to books)  have fasted 40 days & 60 days & 90 days & 109 days!  A woman fasted 90 days & ate 1 meal & died!  They did an autopsy on her & SAID: "Her GUTS were GONE!  --USED UP!  She OVERDID it!  Ha! BUT!  If you try to eat just a teaspoon or two or a tablespoon of wine or fruit juice, YOU WILL LOSE ALL SELF-CONTROL & won't be able to go  back to Fasting till after you SPLURGE & SOMETIMES gain 40-50 POUNDS!  (EXPERIENCE TALKING!--ME!) I had tried many times to get my father to go on a Fast or only 1 or 2 or 3 days --to get interested in the concept, but he NEVER WOULD! He once told me on the phone that he was Fasting --an Apple Juice Fast!  I said, Dad,  THAT!  Ain't a Fast!  That's taking in carbohydrate callories without any Protein, Fat, Vitamins, or Minerals!  To FAST MEANS taking in NO CALORIES!  --Water Only! He said.  "OH."  BUT!  "A little KNOWLEDGE is a DANGEROUS THING!" The KNOWLEDGE of Self-Control through FASTING IS What allowed him to KILL HIMSELF by Starvation! Sorry Dad!  There wasn't nothing I could do!  I didn't even know! But I know ONE THING!    I would  never  have prayed for you to  DIE  to go to be with Jesus!   Because  Jesus is ALIVE in the Physical  New Jerusalem --the Giant Space Station that IS HEAVEN!  & you HAVE TO BE ALIVE to go there! "The DEAD in Christ shall rise first, then we who are ALIVE & remain shall  be caught up together with them & SO shall we ever be with the Lord--Jesus Christ."  But Paul was excuted & didn't "endure unto the end" & will have to be RESURRECTED before he will be able to go to Heaven!  & the problem is will he remember his past life when he is PHYSICALLY RESURRECTED in a PHYSICAL BODY?  Solomon in Ecclesiastes 9:5-6 says:  NO! "...No longer have any part in anything done under the sun any more forever!"  The Physical Body comes back again & again but never remembers its past life!  --the Conscious Mind & Memory --"their Love & their Hate & their Envy have ALSO already PERISHED!  --the DEAD do NOT  KNOW ANYTHING,  for their Memory is Forgotten!" To remember your Past life  &  go to Heaven, you HAVE TO   stay ALIVE  till Jesus comes back to take YOU  UP  to Heaven--the  Physical Place  where he is living --eating the Physical Tree of Life! Matthew 24  "He that ENDURES UNTO THE END (of the World by Fire)  the SAME SHALL BE SAVED!"  & "I will raise him up on the LAST DAY!"